It was one of the worst days of my life. I was alone, and the pain was unbearable. The air felt as if it was stuck in my lungs. I struggled to inhale and exhale. Each one accompanied a sob. At that moment, as the panic swirled around me, I didn’t feel it would ever get better.
The pain was stabbing and consuming. I cried myself to sleep most nights and even woke up crying a few times. All I could think about, as the pain consumed me, was how to stop it. A few times, I desired the Lord to take me home. Because I didn’t think I could live with a broken heart.
No one was around. For the most part, it was just me and my heartache. Sometimes, I yearned for an encouraging word. But when people think you are strong, they sometimes dismiss that you need help. So, I was alone most days with my heartache and troubling thoughts.
During this time in my life, I learned something so valuable. God is always there! He never leaves us. In our times of sorrow, God will sit with us. He will speak words of peace to our troubled souls. He created our hearts; therefore, He knows how to comfort us.
His words encouraged me. That year, I decided to read the entire Bible. So, every morning, I read His words of encouragement. They comforted me and gave me hope. Sometimes, a verse would stand out to me, and I would write it down and think about it all day.
The hope only found in God helped me overcome my circumstances and get through the most painful time in my life. God blessed me to thrive amid my storm. He wiped my tears and strengthened me. God removed that trial from me when I learned what I needed to know. And the gift of enduring the pain was priceless.
God wants you to seek Him. When others are there for us, we depend on them and don’t need God. When we are all alone, with our heartache, we truly desire His presence.
I encourage you to seek the Lord if you are going through your trial. Seek His wisdom, knowledge, love, and peace. Let Him help you to grow through the trials. God knows your situation. Find a quiet place and talk to Him. Let your relationship with Him be the most important, and He will show you how to better relationships with others.
Every evening, I sat on the porch with Him. I cried, prayed, and asked Him to guide me. And He did.