For so many years, I was the queen of procrastination. Every day I allowed my to-list to compound with previous days. It stacked higher and higher until I was so exhausted just by looking at all that I needed to do that I couldn’t bring myself to take action.
Year after year, I carried my dreams into the New Year until they felt impossible. Then I would think. It’s just not possible for someone like me. So I would quit and accept defeat- without ever really trying.
Regardless of how much I regret my previous decisions, I can’t change one second of my past. Admitting that is hard. Knowing I wasted so much precious time is heartbreaking. I can’t get that time back. It’s gone. But what I can do is go after my dreams and become the person I want to be today.
Last night, I lay awake with a problem swirling around in my head. When I got up this morning, it still weighed heavily on me. As the saying goes, the old me would have worried about it all day and made a mountain out of a molehill. Instead, I thought of a solution and put my plan into action immediately at 5:30 a.m. I was moving my desk and completely rearranging my office.
Now my problem is solved. And I can enjoy the rest of my day.
Making progress makes me feel good. It shifts my mindset from problems to solutions. When I am focused on solutions, I get a creative attitude. And in a creative space, I create the life I love.
The more I learn and grow, the more I realize that I create many problems and limiting beliefs. If I can make the problems, however, I can also solve them. This year, I want to be so organized and productive. I want to overcome all my bad habits and replace them with good ones. Instead of feeling overwhelmed by this prospect, I am so excited.
I also feel so proud of myself because I know that I am showing up for myself every day and taking a step toward the person I want to be and the life I want to live. I have a plan and a list of things to do each day.
While being so focused and disciplined is hard, it is even harder to drift through my days and waste my life. Therefore, I get to choose which version of hard I want to embrace. One makes me stronger, and the other one makes me weaker.
The enemy may defeat me, but I will put up a good fight. I will not quit. Through God, I will overcome every obstacle.
Have a beautiful day!