Why I Choose to Love, Even When Life Hurts

• By candidasullivan
• March 3, 2025
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Whether you love God or hate Him is really none of my business. I don’t have to account for you, and you don’t have to account for me. We all have an individual experience and relationship with God. And we all have the freedom to choose.

But I do feel an immense responsibility to tell you about my God.

God is so great in my life that I want everyone to experience Him. My life hasn’t been easy. I have trauma, and I have truly been through so much. But in the dark moments, when no one else was there, my God was with me. He has comforted and held me through the worst moments of my life.

At some point in my life, I’ve hit rock bottom spiritually, mentally, emotionally, physically, and financially. I’ve hit rock bottom in my relationships and even considered ending my life (when I was young). I’ve gone as far as writing the letters and planning it all. So, I understand the pain that goes so deep it threatens our lives.

But God showed up where others couldn’t reach and touched me. He gave me hope amid the darkness.

God has used every ounce of my pain for good. My experiences have helped so many people. God has turned my heartaches into blessings.

That’s why I do it, sweet friends. I don’t want you to be hurt or feel alone. Regardless of your beliefs, I will be your friend if you want me to be. While I may not understand your exact pain or struggle, I still love and care for you. Right now, I would sit with you in all of your pain and messiness.

We don’t have to understand each other’s journey to love each other through it. I don’t think anyone in my life has ever asked me what it’s like to live with scars and to be judged every day based on my appearance. No one asks me what it feels like to struggle with simple tasks or the fears deep inside of me.

But I don’t hate people for not understanding my life. I don’t expect them to because this is my journey, not theirs.

I long ago decided to give others a glimpse of the person underneath the scars. I want the inside of me to be what people remember. All of the attacks in my life, the fears, insecurities, struggles, and judgments, have given me so much compassion. I know how it feels to be different, rejected, and unloved.

So, if you share your pain with me, I will hold space for you and love you through whatever you are going through.

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