I cried myself to sleep. It was a post on the internet that caused me to spiral. After a few minutes of a negative thought spiral, I felt unloved and unwanted. Then, the enemy took me on a little road trip of my life. We visited every rejection and moment of pain possible. He gathered and presented all the evidence in a neat package of worthlessness.
Finally, I fell asleep with tears on my eyelashes and sorrow in my heart. But before I drifted off to sleep, I whispered to God and asked Him to help me see the situation differently.
The following day, the tears and sorrow were still there. I cried while I brewed my coffee, cried while I read my Bible, and while I journaled. But as the words formed on the pages, my vision cleared. God took all the pain and heartache and showed me it was lies.
Lies. I spent days crying over lies.
And I’m sure Satan laughed and delighted in my pain. He used me, and I fell for his untruths.
So, I started thinking about it, examining my thought pattern from someone witnessing it rather than experiencing it. And I could see it.
The enemy makes us feel like a victim. He will even collect all our past failures and heartaches to prove his point. He reminded me of every time I felt rejected and unloved. With every flashback, my defense slipped a little more until I was utterly wallowing in the pain of self-pity. The bad stuff really is easier to believe.
HOWEVER, the truth will indeed set us free. I could see it through a Godly perspective when I became willing to put all the pain aside and search for the truth. And I felt foolish for crying about a bunch of made of lies.
I wonder how often the enemy does this to us every day. How many times are we in pain because of his falsehoods? God is the only One who can reveal the whole truth to us. And the enemy hates God for it.
He will even try to convince us that God doesn’t love us during our weak moments. Why are we struggling and suffering if the Lord loves us so much? But Satan leaves out the part that we suffer from his lies and attacks.
When I take my pain to God, He shows me that it is not as bad as it seems. I can see it all clearly when He opens my eyes to the truth.
Sweet friends, if you are suffering, I encourage you to take it all to the Lord. Give Him the raw, unfiltered version, and ask Him to help you see things through His eyes. God can turn the heartaches into blessings.
Philippians 4:8 King James Version
8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
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