Staying When I Want to Run

• By candidasullivan
• December 30, 2025
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Writing with God can be intimidating.
Especially when I show up, open my notebook, and for a few minutes all I can do is stare at a blank page. The silence feels loud. The emptiness magnifies. And everything in me wants to run.

But I’ve learned something sacred: if I stay and wait on the Lord, He always shows up. And when He does, He fills the emptiness with His goodness.

Being in the presence of the Lord can feel scary. I feel small. Unworthy. Exposed. In the stillness, my thoughts get louder, and the enemy is quick to speak. He tells me God doesn’t want to write with me today. That I’ve lost my creativity. That I should just move on and do something easier.

But if I quiet myself, set my feelings aside, and choose obedience anyway, God meets me there.
He always shows up in the place of obedience.

There is something holy about enduring the silence long enough for God to enter the conversation. His voice doesn’t rush. It doesn’t compete. It waits patiently for my flesh to step aside.

My flesh will never feel ready or worthy to do God’s work. If I wait until I feel ready, I’ll never begin. I’ve learned that I have to move my flesh out of the way so my soul can hear God’s voice and work with Him.

That’s the part I struggle with most.

My flesh wants to hurry through my time with God. It wants productivity without presence. And because of that, my writing time often feels like a battle—my soul reaching for God while my flesh resists the stillness.

When my soul and flesh are at war, the most powerful thing I can do is stop and ask the Lord for help. God works through stillness. But He doesn’t chase me down. He waits for me to choose Him.

To truly work with the Lord, I have to make time for Him.

And I believe it pleases the Lord when we intentionally make space for Him in our days. When we schedule time for God, we show Him that He matters to us—that He can count on us to show up.

God doesn’t give work to those who never come sit with Him.

So starting now, I’ve blocked off time each day just for my Lord. Time to read my Bible. Time to write. Time to pray. Life gets busy, and the enemy has no shortage of distractions, but I don’t want to leave my time with God to chance.

“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.”
Ecclesiastes 3:1 (KJV)

Will you join me?
Will you make intentional time for God in your day?