Do you have a relationship with the Lord?

If someone had asked me this years ago, my answer would have been entirely different. I didn’t know we were supposed to have a relationship with God, or that something like that was even possible. I knew about God, but I didn’t really know Him. And honestly, I wouldn’t have known how to go about building a relationship with Him anyway.

One of the greatest gifts of my life has been getting to know my Lord.

As a young girl, He saved me, but I didn’t yet have a relationship with God. While I went to church and prayed occasionally, I didn’t desire more. For years, I just barely scraped the surface with my Lord, living more out of routine than connection.

I also felt very shy and nervous when I talked to God. I was afraid I would say something wrong or approach Him the wrong way. I didn’t understand that He wanted my heart more than my “perfect” words.

Then I found myself in the pit of depression.

My life felt as if it were unraveling before my eyes. I was on a downward spiral, and I couldn’t do anything to stop it. Lying face down in the trenches of sorrow was where my relationship with the Lord truly blossomed.

During that time, I felt as if I didn’t have a friend in the world. I cried all day long. I could barely get out of bed. My only responsibility was getting my kids to school, and even that simple task felt overwhelming.

In the darkest times of my life, God didn’t leave me.
He didn’t condemn me.
He loved me.

If I wrote every day for the rest of my life, I could never fully explain how much His love and encouragement carried me through that season.

The enemy painted me a picture of hopelessness, but God gave me hope. Sometimes I look back on where I was just to see how far God has brought me. On the hardest days, He held me while I cried and gave me glimpses of a better day ahead.

When I needed Him the most, God became my best friend.

I desired to know more about Him, so I began reading my Bible daily and praying every day. I had a special spot on my deck where I would sit and have conversations with God—real conversations. I told Him about my day, my fears, my heartaches, and I asked Him for guidance. That time with Him became my favorite part of the day.

Now, when my feet hit the floor each morning, my heart whispers, “Thank you, Lord.”

My life today looks nothing like it did back then. Not only did the Lord deliver me from my heartaches, but He blessed me with something even more precious—a relationship with Him. Through it all, I got to know His heart, and He showed me His faithfulness.

John 15:5 (KJV)
“I am the vine, ye are the branches… for without me ye can do nothing.”

If you’ve ever wondered whether God wants a relationship with you too—He does. And He will meet you exactly where you are, just as He met me.

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