Is There Any Reason to Carry Yesterday’s Pain?

• By candidasullivan
• March 6, 2026
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I am no stranger to pain. Throughout the course of my life, I have experienced soul-crushing, body-changing, heart-breaking pain. For many years, I was terrified of it. I tried to stuff it deep inside of me, so I didn’t have to feel it. 

At the time, stuffing and ignoring felt safer than feeling and experiencing. But the more I stuffed and ignored, the sicker I became. Painful rashes and inflammation spread throughout my body. It was like it was on fire from the inside out. 

With the pain came intense waves of fear. I lived in the anticipation that something terrible was about to happen. So it terrified me to leave my house, and for my loved ones to leave. 

While my kids were at school and my husband was at work, I felt tidal waves of anxiety. My body was tense and in a state of heightened panic. Seeing them didn’t really relieve my fear, because I just moved on to the next, equally fearful, tragic thought about what might happen. 

It was as if I were locked in a prison of fear, and I couldn’t break free. Medicine didn’t really help, and in that season, it felt as if my prayers went unanswered. Probably because they were fear-filled and faithless. In my mind, I didn’t think God could or would help me. Most nights, I woke up in a panic attack—afraid I would die or they would. 

To overcome my fear and pain, I had to be willing to feel it and expose the thoughts, causing so much turmoil in my life. The sad part is that most of them were lies. I lived in distress for years over lies. 

Sweet friends, the enemy distorts our thoughts. We don’t realize this is happening because they are in the deep corners of our minds. The enemy flashes bits and pieces to see what we will believe, then he expands on them. As we start to believe, the fearful thoughts grow and keep getting bigger. 

God showed me that my true fear was that something would happen that I couldn’t handle. The reason we feel like we can’t handle it is that we are not there yet. God doesn’t strengthen us or comfort us beforehand. He comes to us in real pain, not imagined pain. 

Knowing this changed me. It helped me to pull out all of the big, scary thoughts and look at them. Some of them were painful. But I sat with them, and God sat with me. I felt them and willingly experienced it all, and the pain and fear diminished. 

Every moment in our lives can strengthen or weaken us. It’s all in how we process it. We can look at it through a fearful lens of our thoughts and perceptions, or we can take all the messy, broken, and scary pieces to the Lord. We can lay each one at His feet and ask Him to help us process it correctly. 

Yesterday, I almost had a head-on collision. Thankfully, the truck turned at just the right time. But it was so very close. As my body trembled afterward, I went straight into gratitude, thanking God for His protection. I didn’t allow my mind to go to what could have happened. If I had talked it over with the enemy, he would have had me anxious and in a state of panic over what God already took care of. 

Yes, it could have been bad, but it wasn’t. God’s grace covered me, and I refused to allow the enemy to distort the grace and goodness of my Lord. 

Learning to take charge of my thoughts and uncover their sources has changed my life. I’m not afraid of the worst-case scenarios of pain the enemy might conjure up, because I can count on my Lord to lead me to the truth. When I ask God to give me a Godly perspective about it all, He will. 

With God, we can leave behind the pain of what happened to us. God’s grace covers it all. God will bring justice for every wrongdoing. So, I ask myself: Is there any reason to take yesterday’s pain into today? 

When I become willing to let go of it all, God gives me a freedom I can’t explain. We don’t have to stay locked in prisons of fear, doubt, shame, guilt, injustice, and unforgiveness. God has the key. Through Him, the chains are broken, and His blood sets us free. 

The blood of Jesus covers it all. 

Will you let Him cover your pain?