Born for This: The Calling Behind My Scars

• By candidasullivan
• August 20, 2025
• No Comments

Do you ever feel rejected, lonely, or as if you are not good enough?

For as long as I can remember, I’ve stood in the shadows and felt as if I don’t belong. I am different, and yet my difference goes beyond the scars of my flesh. My thoughts, perspectives, and behaviors are often different as well.

So I used to try to change myself to fit in. I just wanted to belong and have a sense of worthiness. Day after day, I lived in a state of rejection and loneliness. Only it wasn’t the behavior of others that hurt me so deeply.

It’s not the rejection of others that hurts us the most. But instead, when we reject ourselves. When we change who we are within to fit in, be accepted, or loved, we betray ourselves. Those daily betrayals create scars and cause us deep pain.

Out walking and talking with the Lord, I asked Him why I feel so lonley and different and why I struggle so much to find my place in this world.

In that still, small voice, God explained a few things to me. God opened my eyes when He told me that He chose me for this work. I’m not here to enjoy myself and live for myself. I’m here to be a light for Him. I’m here to tell others about the Lord and to lead them to Him. I’m here to do the work that He called me to do.

God allowed the bands to entangle me. He allowed my flesh to be damaged because He knew it would help me to do His work.

Finally, I get it. I do. I believe in all the beautiful things God has told me, and I believe I am worthy to do this work. Why? Because God called me to do it. He chose me!

I get rejected by others all the time, but I’ve stopped rejecting myself and the calling of my Lord. I know who I am and whose I am. I understand why I do the things I do. I don’t have to explain myself to others. But I will have to reap what I sow, good or bad. Every choice I make will have some consequence. I need to ensure I am satisfied with my choices and actions.

On one of the worst days of my life, I sat on my porch alone and cried until I couldn’t cry anymore. No one sat with me, except God. And that’s when I decided to be who He created me to be, and stop giving other people’s opinions any control over me. I’ve been on this journey for years, but I’ve only recently come to understand what it truly means to follow the Lord and do what He wants me to do.

I feel like I’ve had the breakthrough I’ve been struggling with for so long. I’ve stopped standing between two opinions. God created me. He blessed me to live when the enemy tried to take my life. And He chose me to do His work.

Thank you, Lord! Thank you for creating me the way you wanted. Thank you for allowing me to live. Thank you for choosing me!

Sweet friend, if you feel lonely, unworthy, or rejected, God has something for you as well. Spend time with Him and let Him tell you how He chose you, too.